strong heart

ppl say yeah im 22 but act like a kid.yeah i admitted that me.but one thing that ppl can see in me wat im suffering inside.i feel want to cried but i hide from ppl coz i dun want ppl see me hurt even though the statement make me hurt badly.i can't bare to talk to ppl bout my prob i have enough pain when im in dip talkin to ppl bout my prob in the end im the getting more pain.to me best it to keep all my prob with me n try to solve my prob.2 days ago felt so burden inside my chest n tried to let a go by tears but i can't.i felt.i do share prob with friend but no all prob i shared.sometime i act like a selfish person.before this im always put everyone 1st than me n now i felt i changing..im asking myself isn't the rite thing to do or should changed back.i know im a good listener n always tried to solve everyone problem without making fool. i feel that im now hard to express my emotion..only to things i can express to ppl laughing n fooling around.i can't bare to cry to ppl..i do look strong outside but inside me im cried so much...

first snow n first kiss ~seobie and daniel~


yeah found the lyric song finally..1sr rime i heard song im melting and crying on the same time.im salute them no wonder are lead singer in they groups.. credit lyricfreak.com everything possible with them hehehe



This song is dedicated you
My first love
My one and only
You always be my baby
Neol wihan nolaeya geuligo
Merry christmas
Cheos nun-i ogiman-eul gidalin salam
Haengbog-i ol geo lago mid-eossdeon salam
I bam-i gamyeon olkka
Salang-i naege olkka
Ginginbam jam mos jamyeo gidalin salam
Jongsoliga gwisga-e deullyeo ol ttae
Sowon-eul deul-eojullae keuliseumaseue
Kkumsog-e geunyeoga salang-eul malhagil
Cheos nun-i ogileul
Cheos nun-i oneun geolie
Geunyeowa nun-eul maj-eumyeo
Geudaeleul angoseo haneul-eul nal-ass-eo
Neoneun naui cheos-salang
Salang-eul juneun geolie
Geunyeowa ib-eul majchumyeo
I bam-eul hamkkehae pyeongsaeng-eul hamkkehae
Neoneun naui cheos-salang-iya

Eoneusae nae mam modu gajyeogan salam
Da jul su iss-eul deus hae neoneun nae salang
Nuncheoleom hayahge amudo moleuge
Salang-i naege one
Bam haneul byeoldeuldo ulil chugboghaeyo
Geudaeman issdamyeon nan nolaehaeyo
Chagaun bibalamdo eoduun bam-i wado
I mam-eun byeonchi anh-a nan yagsoghaeyo
Kkum sog-e geunyeoga salang-eul malhagil
Cheos nun-i ogileul
Cheos nun-i oneun geolie
Geunyeowa nun-eul maj-eumyeo
Geudaeleul angoseo haneul-eul nal-ass-eo
Neoneun naui cheos-salang
Salang-eul juneun geolie
Geunyeowa ib-eul majchumyeo
I bam-eul hamkkehae pyeongsaeng-eul hamkkehae
Neoneun naui cheos-salang-iya
Snow is falling from the sky
I'm happy that you're in my life
I'm happy that I can walk down
This road by your side
And I promise you one thing
That I'll love
And cherish you forever
I wish you a merry christmas
Cheos nun-i oneun geolie
Geunyeowa nun-eul maj-eumyeo
Geudaeleul angoseo haneul-eul nal-ass-eo
Neoneun naui cheos-salang
Salang-eul juneun geolie
Geunyeowa ib-eul majchumyeo
I bam-eul hamkkehae pyeongsaeng-eul hamkkehae
Neoneun naui cheos-salang-iya
Merry christmas

invisible

i dunno y im always thinkin of him.always remember our great memories together. we going thru everything together.i can't 4 get what u do to me when i be ignore by klik u whisper in my ears.. no matter wat happen mumu im always there for u..coz of that shed my tears n become much closer to u.singing to me n saying missin of me..make me fallen for u n i believe that u meant to be with me.after 6 month we be friend i know u have girlfriend my heart broke to pieces.coz of that i start to make gap from u suddenly u msg me say i broke up with my gurl n i need someone to talk with...so im offering myself that i be thera for u. there for almost 24/7 i heard how pain u in n i feel that.when u down i here to cheer u up. n i believe i get 2nd chance ti be with u n great our story. after 4 month we msg like every 2 second for a sudden u stop msg me n says that u bz..so no doubt for it. every time u msg me and im going out with my friend..i just ok never question u who u out with coz i believe that u with friends..then u msg me again u just going out r ex n says dun worry we just friend. so im ok with that.never thinking bad thing happen. after a month u msg me n say im going to johor sent my friend back there. when i got i directly reply ur msg n says i feel something wrong n drive carefuly.after u arived there u msg me n sayi arrived exhausted maybe u will sleep over..a whole night we msg until u slept.next morning u msg going back to kl..after that 3 days u didn't msg me i feel worry but i dun want to disturb u maybe u tired..on 10pm u msg me that actually try to on back with ur gf.im crying to death the friend u refer is u ex.....i felt i be cheated for 2nd time..n with a bit guts asking u wat happen coz i dun want u know im crying that time. u say u regret that u tried to go back her..coz she only using u......i shock with the statement.....n try to console u n i say to u beb if u need me i will tried to be there with u...starting taht day we back msg n u also try to flirt with me but on that time i still searching wat i want for myself.4 month later i when internship lot of thing happen n i start to fallen back at u...we nearly been in relationship but we didn't meant rite.3 day before i finish mywork u came n surprise me....i was so touch u came coz of me ....n u can how shine my face saw u there..u gimme hope to be with u .....i know u know that im luv u but u afraid to take step further than that with me...im always be invisible infront on u................

hardship

everything happen for a reason.i never believe the phrase before. now i understand why people always say that. before this im always estimate artist easier way to have money.. u know y??? coz the artis i saw always want a fame never to show how talent show are.. i start to open my eyes 1st time i saw korean kasu become famous n struggle to live n to survive to be on top. im cried every time they say how suffer they life before debut artist....uu it me lah i think can't survive n maybe i will stop half..im salute how they dterm to be one.. even though i never go thru they life but seeing them face working hard n try to satisfy fan..i cried thanx u so much beast u always work hard for ur beauty.. i can't stop to say tq to so much u never stop to pleased us..thanx beast im will always be u beauty no matter......

wish come true

finally, i got to saw my 1st love in kpop industry.i was like can't believe our distance only 100 meter and i', screaming hard see him in front me..even i lost my voice 2 day be4 the concert n catch cold.ahaha like mello drama i think.. i think so excited coz he comin...i cried n happy on the same time coz his in front of me..even just a while n i can't get enough of u 감사합니다. im appreciated a lot u have time to come n show ur love..n thank for fulling my wish.u always be my 1st from the beginning till end.. ur laugh making my day full with colour.......

empty

people say leave ur past n go thru anew life..how i can do that coz my past always make me happy.it hard to leave all my past. sometime i felt my soul no connected.mmm i need someone to fill up my emptiness.i know i have chingoo i can lean but i need someone who can always there for me.But I’m walkin out this life n my heart is empty.............

still in b2st fever

im still thinking bout there even though after 4 day..im like flying omo ottekeyo??mm thinking of them was like aaa im still can't believe see them face to face.n regret why i froze in froze especially in of yeseob arghhhh...sdgkan in front of aj i m like wave happily n smile happily when reach to yeseob i was like blank aigo..yeseob i dunno if u remember the blank face in front of u..i wish b2st comeback again i want to redeem my face expression look more cuter in front u n say to u yeseob aaaa nomu nomu kashamnida 4 comin ..i feel i bless coz one of my wish comin true heheheh....

so in the beast fever

1st gift for yeseob
2nd day gift for me to yoseob

i just can't believe i see them in person.im froze a while see them with my on eyes..omo they ar hot n cute in person nice..even we can't communicate coz they can't understand english but im still luving them no matter what.. 2 days got to same to time going up to stage to get they autograph omo im feel so lucky hehehe....but i a bit irritating on the the showcase day im like waiting there starting at 10 a.m.i felt so disappointed coz of security mmmmmmmm im que so long but who cut the line and came late get ro enter 1st..i like wat the h*** was this n depress coz i didn't the priority wearing the b2st shirt to get in first but they they let the people was not wearing shirt in im like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa screaming loud in middle of the line..i think like 7 hour waiting 4 there n i felt want to give up everything but coz of them i still strong..i so relief when i step in the kl live n heard they played beast song like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa n think of them omo.im satisfy with performance n after the performance go to stage get autograph all the six members but so stupid not giving my gift personal to yoseop i hoping he fine the gift n luv the gift.1st the joker then woonie im like see her omo so lovely n smile to him aj sad coz he to busy signing the cd n see joon i wave to he smile n nod his head to me then i go to hyunseung suddenly im blank see him his like mm blank too.then yeseop omo im stare to him then im like jumping around the corner after he smile at me hehehe..
on 2nd day goin to ou at 1st just think just want to see them from far but after 3 hours sitting there all my chingoo going stage im the only be left alone..feel so sad coz i alone by myself.i so thankful to the mobile banker dubu *kikiki* coz her i got to follow all my friends im like yeahhhhhhh i got to meet them 4 2nd time hehehe i bought lollipop 4 yoseob n i want to give him personally.be4 eneter stae 8v nite live ask 4 taking my picture hehehe....i enter the stage n the joker like see me n give bit smile to me then passing to woon he like omo smiling cutely then go to aj i like waving him ike waving back the dujun omo smiling again goin hyungseung he like remember me n give a big smile..after waiting to go yeseob im like yeseob aaa bout 3 time but he can't heard me waa T________T giving the lollipop to him he like *hah* n take it but giving side n like the security hold that n im like want to cried see that im hoping he take lollipop back...n almost 4 get my booklet n his like looking around i think with his blank face i think.yeseob is the 1st artist that i giving a gift im like image his picture be surrounding by lollipop n wearing nightmare shoe omo so cute hoping post the picture............

beast coming



yeah less than a week i meet beast...excited n jumping around thinkin of them coming but i still didn't prepare my gift 4 them...omo ooteke??mmm still searching the conclusion......

wish dream come true

im sorry but i still in love with u.im workin hard to 4get u n try to live happier but i can't. i pretend being strong every time see u but truth my life full with pain each time see u.woke up in morning u the 1st in floating in my mind.lovin u is a miracle coz of u im learning to express my self how i feel but one thing i can't express how much that i love u.i rather hide my feeling toward u even thought im suffer with that but seeing u walk away from make my heart break even more.we always there for each other but with can't cross one line.i wish we could cross that together so we can be one.if that happen i the luckiest gurl coz i got the man that i love n want u to be a happiest person when u with me but it just dream..............n i believe one day my dream come true................

time 4 family


This picture be taken on 사월 이십일 on my uncle wedding day.im satisfy of the wedding ceremony even thought i have to do 서ㅣ 개.. wishing newlywed couple for happiness till the end... n i can't waited to more dongseng.....

confession of love


even million miles we a part half of me is u. how can't i stop lovin u n can't to miss for a second.fallen in love with u one of the greatest feelings i never had.. with u lot of thing what is good what is bad..how blue the skies is .u always there when i happy or sad..watch or heard u make me laugh n cried.u never gave up at me even i start loose my mind..how can't i ask more from u coz u my life have complete... u only love in my life..............

food craze



mogo time after class... hehe finally hyeong n me eating at sam sam restaurant.. even thought we have to walk bout 20 minutes satisfy coz i got to eat my favorite cuisine.. i always eat jupchea but today im try new dish in sam sam .. my menu 4 today dubu stew/rice/radish kimchi n green tea. it taste so good n i feel one to eat more uuuuuuuuuu....

stakin time


grand opening double-radish blog and stalkin my seobang cover of anan magazine april issue... ooo im droolin see him topless n his hot pose..... i want this magazine.. wahh japanese are so lucky to have this kinda magazine..when we be out in my country i the 1st one will que at kinokuniya to pay 4 the anan magazine