Journey

hi to myself, 2nd week of August. i hope i can survive till the end of august.  I been thru lot this 1-2 week. im scared that i gonna loss a person i love while i keep on step forward. i try hard to be as much i can to b his side but lately i feel he tried to push away. it that love or it just me walking alone toward the future. Do i feel worth to keep holding a person or just gave up. i dunno why i shed lot tear this month. this a month i feel so down.  I hope my life gonna change..

You You

hey one more day to 2016 and my heart felt like about to explode. damn why i keep missing you. i just 12 days we didnt see each other. i felt like i loss my other half. mm is it only me or he felt same. Do he felt what i do and it strange coz i shed tear for him. i do i have wrong personality but when it to him i getting soft. what he do to me? 3 month we been together. and this month one of the tough month i been thru.is it worth i cry for him? or should i give up on him? but i believe he can change but it take time right. If meant to be with so he will. I have tell myself how hard we in this relationship i have to go thru. To My b i wrote this not tell the world our relationship is hard with but this a way me to express myself when i felt nobody understand me and u. B one day all of sudden our relationship end or one us found someone else. i want u to know i not a person who gonna let thing go easily. i used to love someone before u n it take 4 year to let go of the guys. N maybe u the last guy i share my love. B i know u not person who can express love like i do but deep inside u tried right. B if u want to let me go dont u make me fallen more to u.

One day before my b b-day

hey blooper it been a while didnt update myself.. almost a week i finish my intern at regency  bit bored btw hehhe.. oh almost 4get less than 10 hour my bie bday.. yeaaa 23 now n im will b 25 end of this year..omo i getting old but my heart still like a kid hahha... i mis mr seobie so much n hope get to see him back soon *scream* seobie u came back after 2 year n i miss that time a lot..n i cant 4 get every sweet thing happen when we meet aww my..jumping in front of u speechless n froze in front n the time u point at me..making me angao woooooooooooooooo.. bie hope  u came to malaysia we create a new memory for us huahuhauhua * duh so in dreamin".. ok ppl im poof myself off now daaaaaaaaaaaaaa,

my bie have growin up

hey blogger, i was happy heard that yang yoseob have a solo album.. i cant wait to the full solo album release  on 12 pm korea time.. i have watched seobie new mv haha.omg i was surprised how my bie growin up n now im addicted with caffeine...haha i now a caffeine lover n seobie sang caffeina song tooo huhauhua.. here the teaser of seobie new song

Two day hols..

Hey blogger i got two days off hehe bit sad cant attend kpop storm... Huhu it ok mb next time i gonna see teen topp.bang min soo i luv u heehe..waited for me next year bang min soo.im goin to fly to korea

Kpop storm

Hey bloggie i was so happy heard teen top will becomin to malaysia for kpop storm..bit sad coz im stil 50 waitin to have 2 days hols to watch them..wa bang minsoo..i wanna see u damn much

regency hotel

hey blogger today is my 20 day intern in regency..i m learning to b better person..i never dream to b want of front linear in hotel industry..after working here i realize is not easy to b front linear..n im trying to adapt this life..i know i make lot of mistake n foolin around to much.n start today i tried to b focus with my work..

friendship

hey it been a while im not update my blog.today im watching a video from jinnyboytv the stories about friendship between a girl and boy. when i watch the video and i realize the stories similar to mine story. i know how the girl feel when the guy all of sudden have gf n feel lonely. even thou hurt always show smile and  support him. hope u guy enjoy daaaaaaaa

my bbbb

hey it been awhile i didnt update bout my..this my life so free coz only 2 day class a week hehe,lot of thing need to be done...mm i so miss mr yoseob i was drooling his new hairstyle,,,yoseob  pali waa comeback..i was going crazy wooo saw his red hair.. haha i miss his n smile so much comeback seobie im waiting for u..that y i cant say no to yoseobie  loving him so much,,,

im freeeeeee

hey blogger..haha finally im updating my story.. yeaaaaaaaaaaa finally i have finish all my assignment n presentation yahooo so besh woooooooo..now im have my normal life backk this so crazy week for me.alhamdullilah me manage to settle everything.as for the food im not luck today one whole day xmkn n im imagine im gonna eat nice dinner.. tgk no gas at kitchen crying hard coz of that...mm me lah bored eating instant noodle dah leh vege instant noodle ayoo but what to do darurat kene gak mkn....

new wallpaper for lappy

my 2nd wallpaper i made for my lappie.. finally got to compile on my hubby in one time.. hahaha seeing this wallpaper making me happy... hehe to my hubbies plz don't fighting fighting coz me.. no worries i love u all so much :P

생일축하해 양요서

pic by: @helloimys *wink*

yea to 5th january and to day to two will happen to me..1st day starting my final exam waaaaaaaa n also my bie bday yahoo he 22 this .. i wish him on 12 .01 am korea time hehe.. happy birthday baby wish u have fun b0day and im hoping to see u more often in malaysia .. i so miss to see u live. lot of thing happen last year see u down i cried i know u in pain n i also feel the pain.. this year i want u to grow much stronger . bie u know right b2uty love u so much don't worries bout anti just let it go.. luv u mr seobie....n again i wanna wish 요섭요섭요섭 요섭요섭아 생일축하...

today 8am sharp 1st day of exam will start.. waa me so nervous n scared ok..im praying i can answer all the questions.. . i so want to have a good gred this sem coz i work xtra hard...

ok it getting i need to sleep now see ya...

missing seobie

how can i say no for this cute guy ..im always melting see this face

i know it ridiculous but i miss mr yang.. i dunno why even is impossible to be the person to be recognize by him but i still like him.. mmm weird right i always want see him more never feel satisfied even see him a whole.. that mean im love sick with him. andweeee please don't seobie it a 가수..저는 단지 팬.me have realize but wae wae waee i have got this feeling. 3 days ago,i heard the news that beautiful show not comin to malaysia.. i was so sad coz i have no money go out side from msia.. it so jahat meh..i know it sound selfish but i demand beast comin here.. i wanna see seobie so much i never get tired to him but please cube please take beast here.. i wanna them so much please............................hope to heard a great news bout this pleaseee

eid

yeayea today 1st of raya.. feel excited n bored same time... excited coz finally the ramdhan month complete.. i miss when im lil girl. yesterday chatting with achek she told "t u remember when u lil girl always cry coz wanna come to grandma home after solat raya.. " i nod then i say coz no one at lereng to play with me.every year raya going wan home is like heaven coz lot ppl there n there someone i play,talk n fight there..achek say yea. t now u 22 look how big u grow now n all the lil cousin lol..yea to me know going to wan home is one thing i can't miss out.. yea until if i not stay or sleep there i feel that sometime missing 2 days before or on raya.this year much more excited coz pak cha taking bb aarik to kg.. i more comfortable with wan n all aunts n uncle there.coz they are there for me up n down.. im sorry to my mom sis i feel awkwardness around u guys i feel uncomfortable when u around me n now all of sudden tried to be friendly for me.. sory i hard for me to accept u if u guy feel angry coz i m so cold to u... please keep think this word is is this my fault coursing aty cold with me... i dunno if in future i can accept them or not coz they seem to be care bout me.. so what should i care bout them..

im sorry

last night i have lot of fun with my chingoo.i wake up early with happy mood ...all of sudden mama tell me we going to blk kg n help all the aunty n my cousin to clean the house is been ages... 2s after i answer for what.. since grandma die no one bother to blk kg.. n every year only our family going back forth to kg no want care n now they decide to come back.. no way when i need them or when my mom in pain did they bother bout us. they only came when they need money..is that person who i call family. i know they are my mom lil sis but they ever treat me as niece..the person who always treat as niece my mum cousins..they always treat me same even don't im only 2nd niece them..im happy with that family the person always there for when im in pain n happy. does my real aunties feel that how pain to me as a niece n it too late to open my heart to them coz u make one big whole inside of me...it not that easy to accept u as all of u back to be my aunties.i not a kinda a person not accepting people,hating people or dendam but is almost 18 years now.. did u guy tried to treat me nicely...u ask for urself is that way u treat the only niece from ur big sis and ask ur self the way i greet n treat u with cold shoulder u it that because u...sorry for everything if u think im the one of the bad niece ...i accept that n if u hate me i also accept coz i know im not a good niece n i always thankful to god coz u give me lovely uncles n aunties always there for me.. accept me as they own niece..thank u so much without u guys i think my life not brighter than now..

Break Fast Time

the picture been snap and own by @ladydragon_83

while waiting the food arrive

waiting to break fast

hey bloggers.. on 12 august is the best day ever coz i finally finish the assignment n presentation.. the most happy time is when break fast time with midot,jue,ema,unnie, yana n mimie.. we break fast at nando's. african food yea the food is yummy and eating together making the food more tastier... actually the main objective to gather all kpop chingoo together coz is rarely to see each others. and i want my friend to open new books and 4get the past... that is the main reason.. when we are friend misunderstanding always happen that make our friendship more tighter n close. doing gathering or reunite like this make us bond more to each other.. yea we do have difference bck or difference style but when it come to friendship i always remind myself always there for ur friends....

Mtv world

mtv world stage tag been make by ehye sp for B2C

mtv yea is awesome weh... the best concert i see omg beat is there n i was like going crazy see thm.eventhought didn't get to see on 1 july but i got see him on 24 july im relief coz i miss my ys so much.. after mtv my chinggo n i want to see beast for departure but they leave 2 minutes be4 we arrived there.. i was like sentap for a while n start to cried out lut... coz i so want to seobie n pass my gift to him...n again i can't stop cried waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. today i just finish watchin idol maid ep 12 n 1st time i shed tears watching them coz i see ys in pain ..the thing hurt me the most when see him spray painkiller at his legs.. even i look that i cried if im on his shoes on that time maybe i will start crying waaa bie... bie thank u so much to strong for b2uty and to all beat thank u so much for always making fan their 1st priority.. im always will be b2uty..im sorry sometime im hunger of beast perfomance but u always is the best in my heart...

im sorry

hey i just arrived to seremban..i want to thank u jue for lent me her broadband...im now doing nothing all of sudden remember our sweet memoir together i want to let it go but stuck in my mind... i flashback my memory when with him but only me remember all the moment maybe all the memory he 4get when im here always for him,never question him coz i trust him.i know im abit forcing him or word play of me.im sorry to

Thank to

it been a while...today i just got a sad new. the namja i in love now have a new gurl.. im in shocked n my heart break again like a piece..i admit that i start to 4get u and run way away from u but i end up see u waiting me on finish line.. i realize still have feeling to u. i feel sad but i can't shed my tears but i feel the pain like been hitting by bullet ..im thinking positive way maybe we only meant as friend not more than that. i tried to accept that the best way to give bless to ur new relationship.even im hurt but u deserve to happy. thank you for everything u gave me.the experience u gave is so memorable for me..if one day u want to turn back or realize the person who always with u it me. maybe i will be with u or maybe i have new life. coz we don;t know how the future will be. i wish that u can see thru.....

today is

hey jae_mu ahah...no class for me today ahaha*evil laugh* kk today activities sleep,fbing n twittng ahah nothin rite..mm a sad phone n ternet line a bit off hut today... dunno why?? aigo me looking 4ward to dl shy boy n keep u head down..but i can't bckg music *holding back the tear* crying to death..guest wat today menu i cooked ahah char kueh tiaw...even not sekaw at stall but as long ppl satisfied the food...im ok for that hah...k bye222